*vindicated.

Monday, April 11, 2005
walking away from all masquerades,
treading onto unknown waters.
jaded and weary,
the despondency increases.
seekin for alleviation,
lost in the darkness.
entrapped by deception,
falling into oblivion;
still the faith remains,
of a ray of light far away.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 8:42 AM

Monday, March 28, 2005
the fool is in search of solace,
in need of peace of mind.
trapped in a world of facades,
he forms a smile,
trying hard to disregard.
he attempts to evade,
but the huantings never fades,
and the fool falls down flat;
falling deep into a bottomless pit.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 8:18 AM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005
if nonchalance was in my blood,
then maybe the pain won't be there.
if ignorance was what i was given,
then maybe i could hide behind the facade.
a wish to have protection of own possession,
yet was the item mine to begin with.
there's just so much on my mind,
and nothing seems to be alright.
the danger is in sight,
but the twerp turns a blind eye.
the scarred is worried,
but is the worry necessary.
if chances were given,
would one even grab it?
the mind is simulated,
thoughts are liquidated.
tormented by phobic thoughts,
the heart and mind is not in sync.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 9:55 AM

Saturday, March 05, 2005
it dawned on me that forgiving others,
accepting their flaws and holdin on to them was easy;
yet it was so difficult to hold on to one that you love.
it's never a problem when a friend takes you for granted,
but it's a major one when a lover does it.
the course of love can and will never be smooth-sailing,
nothing goes on love alone.
there's much to sacrifice,
much to give.
it can't be a feeling of 'i love you' and ta-dah,
we're in a relationship.
there's a need for committment,
a need for understanding,
for giving and not expecting anythin in return;
for loving and loving with all your heart.
a relationship is not lookin for a companion,
it's about lookin for a soulmate,
someone who knows how you feel and feel it;
someone who you can talk about anything under the sky,
someone who promises to stay and do so with all her heart.
there's just so much more,
but words can never put them all in place.
if a minor setback could cause one to walk on,
what kinda love is this?
i often wonder.
(:

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 1:33 AM

Friday, February 25, 2005
the mouth twitch and forms a smile,
sounds of laughters filled the emptiness.
the twerp falls back behind it's masquerades,
learning each line and role by heart.
the performance is put to the test,
as wise men try to rip the facades apart.
can the load be lifted and never spoken of,
or is the track leading on to perpetuity.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 11:36 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2004
the memories interwines with the hauntings,
the sunsets and yet another day begin.
evasion seems a cowardly act,
yet the mind begins running the track.
the tangles of the web is hard to forlorn,
trapped in the fool's paradize,
feeling so alone.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 11:15 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004
layers by layers,
the defences falls.
bit by bit,
my senses are lost.
the darkness encumbers,
as i seek for a ray of light.
evading reality,
living in delusion.
i'm a victim of sentiments.

[my hope dangles on a string`]
at 10:23 AM